Our Lady of Guadalupe

O Mother of all grace, all beauty,
you are the paradise of God. 
From you springs the fountain of living
water that irrigates all the universe. 
I stand before you, your child: fill me with You.

~Bernard de Clairvaux

Pope Francis' "Big Heart Open to God"

Today's national evening news broadcasts announced that Pope Francis "has sent shockwaves through the Catholic church" for admitting that the institution had overfocused on the condemnation of abortion, gay marriage and contraception at the expense of open-heartedness and compassion. The media's paraphrase of his words is based on an interview with the pope ("A Big Heart Open to God") in the Jesuit magazine America. This is the pope's actual quote: 

"We cannot insist only on issues related to abortion, gay marriage, and the use of contraception methods. This is not possible. I have not spoken much about these things, and I have been reprimanded for that. But when we speak about these issues, we have to talk about them in a context. The teaching of the church, for that matter, is clear and I am a son of the church, but it is not necessary to talk about these issues all the time. The dogmatic and moral teachings of the church are not all equivalent. The church's pastoral ministry cannot be obsessed with the transmission of a disjointed multitude of doctrines to be imposed insistently. Proclamation in a missionary style focuses on the essentials, on the necessary things: this is also what fascinates and attracts more, what makes the heart burn . . . We have to find a new balance, otherwise even the moral edifice of the church is likely to fall like a house of cards, losing the freshness and fragrance of the gospel. The proposal of the Gospel must be more simple, profound, radiant. It is from this proposition that the moral consequences then flow."

Happy as I am to read these words, I also want people to see that there has been no change in church doctrine per se -- it's more like he's aiming for a much-needed re-prioritization and attitude adjustment. To my mind, he's saying that the institutional church must focus much more on the basic teachings of the Gospel: love, compassion, mercy, humility, sacrifice, kenosis...  With the Gospel -- Christ's teachings and actions -- at the center of the church's motivation, "moral consequences then flow."  

And this is why -- despite the fact that there has been no change in Catholic doctrine (and, as you know, I frequently disagree with these doctrines!) -- I am joyful today. For a long time I have felt that a focus on doctrine puts the cart before the horse, and emphasizes legalism over Love. Such a priority saddens, discourages, and deadens. Heavy-handed doctrinism makes for a narrow-minded, closed-hearted, harshly judging, and increasingly out-of-touch church. When the church puts open-hearted gospel love first, however, love-rooted principles and standards appropriate to this day and age can emerge. I see this happening already, on a small but significant scale, in several loving and "rule-breaking" Catholic communities that I've had the privilege to be a part of. 

So thank you, Pope Francis. Your words and actions make me (and many of my friends) feel a tad less "heretical!"

Prayer for the World

From hunger and unemployment, and from forced eviction:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From unjust sentences and unjust wars:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From neglect by parents, neglect by children, and neglect by callous institutions:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From cancer and stroke, ulcers, madness and senility:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From famine and epidemic, from pollution of the soil, the air and the waters:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From segregation and prejudice, from harassment, discrimination and brutality:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From the concentration of power in the hands of ignorant, threatened, or hasty leaders:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From propaganda, fads, frivolity and untruthfulness:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From arrogance, narrowness and meanness, from stupidity and pretense:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From boredom, apathy, and fatigue, from lack of conviction, from fear, self-satisfaction and timidity:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From the consequences of our own folly:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

From resignation and despair, from cynicism and manipulation:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

Through all unmerited suffering, our own and that of others:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

Through the unending cry of all peoples for justice and freedom:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

Through all concern and wonder, love and creativity:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

In our strength and in our weakness, in occasional success and eventual failure:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

Alone and in community, in the days of action and the time of our dying:

    Merciful One, deliver us.

Deliver us, Merciful One, by opening our eyes and unstopping our ears,

that we may hear your word and do your will.

    Merciful One, deliver us. Amen. 

 --Modified from "A Litany of Modern Ills," The Covenant of Peace, compiled by John P. Brown and Richard York. Wilton, CT: Morehouse-Barlow Co., 1971.

The Particular is Unavoidable

One common question: why belong to one particular religion or follow any specific path? With all the corruptions and abuses that occur within institutional religion, wouldn’t it be better to divorce oneself from such systemic sickness and simply cull what is of value from these lineages, or, better yet, rely on one’s own inner resources and guides? If the tree has produced some wonderful fruit but has also become diseased, isn’t it a healthier choice to savor the good fruit and abandon the tree? Let that old tree die and start afresh?

There is wonderfully sound logic in this. With that good fruit, there will be healthy seeds which might be used to plant new trees in a new time and place. With what we know now, we might eventually produce a more disease-resistant tree, or have in place various early warning systems to stop any pathology before it spreads. Or perhaps choose to live far from trees, and enjoy the openness and expansiveness of the savannah, the desert, the tundra, the ocean. I love such wild and wide fields myself. But then: wouldn’t this choice still be a choice for something specific, something particular? The decision to avoid the old paths and particulars is itself a new path and particular. Pathlessness is a path. Treelessness is a specific geography.

(Brief related tangent: If, as one scholar-friend puts it, religion/spirituality is more widely defined as individual and communal “meaning-generative pursuit,” there really is no way to avoid “religion” if we embrace our creaturely drives to yearn and seek and struggle and deepen. Thus, even atheism and agnosticism – when understood as meaning-generative pursuits – are religions.)

The particular is unavoidable. We are born of a certain mother, in a particular place and time, in specific circumstances. The kind of nutrition, care, and experiences that befall us affect how we grow and who we will become. And this brings me closer to the heart of the original question: isn’t a healthy desert a better “particularity” than a sick tree?

For many people: yes, absolutely! Some people have been forced to eat toxic fruit and need to purge themselves of its poisons. Others have developed debilitating allergies to the tree’s pollens, and need to situate themselves far away from forests and wooded lands. Still others have had to escape rotted-out branches full of decay, fungi, and parasites in order to simply survive. To flee from wooded territories is to live and to thrive. 

And then, of course, there are those who are native to the desert.

But for some of us, there is still great value in a venerable-yet-ailing-and-dying tree…

Perhaps I find myself most “at home” near a border of sorts, basking at the edges of lush tree-shade while perusing the fields and wilderness just beyond it. I know that the tree is both both diseased and healthy, both dying and rising. I recognize that some diseased and decaying branches must, and are, being pruned away in a process that frequently feels too slow for me and for many. But in this life that I have been given, I seem to have been called to tend to this particular tree. The open fields beyond this tree – as well as other trees in the vicinity -- are beautiful and I am welcome to visit them and savor their beauty and nourishment. But my path is to always return to the tree that sheltered and sustained me before my first inklings of awareness about the nature of trees and woods and fields. I ponder the mystery of the surrounding savannahs, streams, star-fields and silences as I sit under this particular tree that has been given to me.

And ultimately, this tree is not a static, stable entity anyway, but rather a series of creative turns and movements, a flow-ering, a cosmic dying-birthing-changing process involving elements and energies seen and unseen. As I tend to this tree and as I value the beauty of other trees and other geographies, I participate in a great current, a shimmering forth, of Being. I recognize myself, along with all others, as that which blooms and dies and transforms.

But this I do from a particular place: this moment that I have been given, this spot near the edge of the shade of one branch of one tree, with a view of fields and sky.

Synchronicity, Sweet and Spooky

My arrival at St. Anthony’s in the Sierra Nevada foothills coincides with a powerful July heatwave. It is 106 F in the breeze, according to my car thermometer. Just carting my luggage from my car to the lobby -- across blacktop pavement -- melts about a quarter-inch off the soles of my sandals.

My simple room, thank the graces that be, is strongly, deliciously, air-conditioned. Summer is the off-season here; and I relish the quiet, which is made more palpable, somehow, by the constant hum of the cooling unit. I am here for three days to pray, read, and write in semi-solitude. There will definitely be no hiking. A few others are gathered on this hot mountain for different varieties of retreats: a Mexican nun, a guitar-playing mom and liturgist, and about two dozen Hindus for communal bhakti yoga practice. (Since the majority of the retreatants are vegetarian bhaktas, our meals include basmati rice, delectable curries, kefir, nuts, and fresh fruits and vegetables. Every bite is exquisite—who could have guessed that the best Indian food in the Sierra is served at a Catholic retreat center?)

I spend most of my time in my room – leaving it mainly for morning mass and for meals in the dining hall. But one afternoon, having discovered how to operate the air conditioning in the Friar’s Chapel, I trek there for a solitary hour of silent prayer. This chapel, situated at the far end of a hall of meeting rooms, is adjacent to the large space where the bhaktas gather for afternoon presentations and teachings. As I tip-toe past the shoes they have left outside of the open room, I glance discreetly at their gathering. They are all sitting on the floor listening intently to a teacher, a clear-voiced man speaking Hindi. After entering the chapel, I quietly close its thick wooden door, which blocks out most sounds. Still, though, I continue to hear the voice of the teacher. I have come to the chapel to enjoy a lovely peaceful space for prayer, and for a brief moment I consider returning at a later time, thinking that the sounds from next door might be too distracting. However, the bhakta’s voice – muted somewhat by the sound of the air conditioner – is no disruption. I find, as I settle in to my seat and open myself to the spaciousness and stillness of the chapel, a subtly comforting loveliness in the rising and falling of the teacher’s voice. I have no idea what he is saying and no notion of the specifics of his presentation. I allow myself to settle in to the richness of this moment, and even though I am “alone” in the chapel, I am also “accompanied” -- gathered alongside a community of devotees whose presence is, apparently, bringing forth an unexpected tenderness and gratitude in my heart. As I remain sitting in silence, letting go and opening and surrendering to a current of prayer, a quiet radiance blossoms and spreads. A field of blessing is here. 

*   *   *   *

Later, in the dark heat of the evening, about fifteen of us gather outside under the stars, lining up next to the statue of St. Anthony. Fr. John has invited everyone to gaze through his telescope. The bright, clear views of Saturn’s rings elicits several oohs and ahhs. I am struck by how large and near the planet seems after viewing it through the telescope. Then, as I look with unaided eyes at other parts of the sky, the unimaginable vastness of the cosmos feels – somehow -- close, touchable, within reach. “Look over there,” I say to the people next to me, pointing to one of the celestial lights just above our horizon. “That’s Venus, right?” “Yes it is,” someone answers. “Bright as the full moon at this time of year.”
            A turbaned man turns to Fr. John. “What is it that you say,” he muses, chuckling, “…the kingdom of heaven is at hand?”

*   *   *   *

On my final evening of my stay, I sit in my room, browsing through a small booklet I found at the St. Anthony gift shop: “The Appearances of the Blessed Virgin Mary.”  It is pious, straightforward, sentimental – not my usual fare when it comes to reading about religion and spirituality. I am drawn to it, though, for several reasons. One: I had a childhood fear of (and fascination with) Marian apparitions – spurred in part by multiple viewings of movies like The Song of Bernadette; Two: I am writing a work that spends some time narrating and exploring those early fears; and three: the booklet includes accounts of apparitions from around the world, including ones that I had not encountered before, such as Our Lady of Akita (Japan), Our Lady of Kibeho (Rwanda), and Our Lady of Soufanieh (Syria). Flipping through the booklet, I also notice and appreciate a caveat in its first few pages: “We must keep in mind that apparitions are adapted to those who receive them and that visionaries perceive them according to their own capacity.”

I glance up to ponder this point, and outside the window there is a sunset so stunning that it makes me gasp. Talk about an apparition, I say to myself, laughing and shaking my head. I grab my cell phone and head outside. Here’s one vision that will be captured by phone-camera, at least.

The face of my phone lights up to reveal a text-message. It is from my sister in the Midwest: “Prayed for you at church today. Love you. Hope you felt the presence of the Holy Spirit around 7 p.m. CT. Hugz.”

Now, this is wild and strange and uncanny. First of all: My sister does not know I am on a short retreat, and she has never texted me before in such a clearly time-specific way about prayer. Secondly: The time she indicates (7 p.m. CT) reveals that her prayer occurred while I was praying the previous day, in that field of blessing with the bhaktas. Thirdly: St. Anthony’s Retreat Center is in an area serviced solely by AT&T, and I do not have AT&T as my cell-phone carrier. I even checked, on the first day of my retreat, noticing that my phone indicated “no service.” I should not have received her message until much, much later, until after I had driven back down from the mountains. (I also immediately tried to send a text-message back to her in response, and my phone simply said “unable to send message.”)

My rational mind wants to find logical explanations for incidents like this, and I know that plenty of folks could probably uncover something commonsensically explicable about synchronicities and mysterious confluences and spooky-action-at-a-distance blessings. But to my heart, this little series of events at St. Anthony’s feels like a wink and a kiss and a nudge from God. And a reminder to pray always, as Mary apparently keeps asking of us, because the field of blessing is both close and boundless. 

Pax Christi: Embracing the Future with Confidence and Hope

The Catholic peace organization Pax Christi  just wrapped up its fortieth national conference in Atlanta, Georgia. I did not attend, but received updates, audio files, and photos from each day of the event. I was glad to see that Bryan Massingale was one of the keynote speakers, and I wanted to share the outline/ highlights of his talk: 

1. If Pax-Christi USA is to remain relevant and on the frontier of 
    peace-making with justice
    ....It must become proactively and intentionally 
    multicultural. 


2. If PC USA is to remain relevant and on the frontier of peace-making with justice . . . 
     It must not only claim that it is anti-racist, but must also cultivate cross-racial solidarity.

     -->THE BOTTOM LINE:  If PC USA is to have a future in a browning nation and Church,
             It must not only claim that it is anti-racist, but must also cultivate 
             cross-racial solidarity... and confront and lament its unconscious 
             racial malformation.

3.  If PC USA is to remain relevant and on the frontier of peace-making with justice . . . 
     It must be perceived not just as anti-war, but also make explicit linkages 
     between peacemaking, consumerism, and ecological justice. 

4.  If PC USA is to remain relevant and on the frontier of peace-making with justice . . . 
     It must intentionally welcome people of all gender identities and sexual 
     orientations.

5. If PC USA is to remain relevant and on the frontier of peace-making with justice . . . 
     It must embrace a comprehensive justice vision, one that the Bible 
     describes as "Shalom."

6. If PC USA is to remain relevant and on the frontier of peace-making with justice . . . 
    Its members (both organizationally and individually) will have to develop 
    contemplative stances and practices.
   

Book Spine Blessing

I entered this into the National Library Week Book Spine Poetry Contest a few weeks back. It's a fun way to toy with found art. Below are the lines I intended for the poem (there is a book's subtitle that I would want to leave out) --

Blessed are thou

on the road

naked

immediate as air

somewhere in advance of nowhere

tattoos on the heart

writing down the bones

how much is enough?

--when the heart waits

everything belongs.